One Day

You may not believe me but I gave you the all I had.

"Let Go"!!! Everyone I've ever come across gave me this advice. But how does one go about doing that so easily when the feelings of both parties are still there? Don't you think if I knew how to let go I would have done it by now but instead of it I feel like bawling out at them.

Well I guess the saddest thing about our whole situation is that there was no definite ending. So what we could do now is to go with the flow and I finally understand lots of thing in just one night, I found myself become so mature & big hearted!

Here is a question! Is it really possible to ever fully move on? Or we just find someone else to fall in love with to fill the void? I guess what hurts most than losing you is knowing you're not fighting to keep me. But on the other hand, I can't blame you because you are just trying to be fair with me so I could just pretty much swallow the pain down my spine and no one would actually knows my sorrow.

In a way as a result, I'm telling myself to go with the flow. Who would ever knows about the future, maybe I found find someone new OR we will be back together once again after you figure out what you want for us! It is just better in time & there is nothing I could do at the moment.

I'm learning and working on it and trying to get myself back to a place that I used to be. I cried a lot when you are gone but I'm trying to be rational to think of the positive sides.

But you don't know about any of this about me because probably I would not cross your mind any longer...

Everyday I'm just living my life like go to woke, hang out with friends, drive on an empty streets to clear my mind, read some books, surfing the net, text new people a day but no one I come in contact with ever knows that I am always thinking about you. You have always been inside my heart, my mind  and my secret.

xxA